I miss my friend:(? Help me?

I had a best friend but I didn't value her friendship .. And I feel like **** it's been almost 2 years sence I have seen or talked to her... I was disrespectful when she was the only one who was there for me.... I wish I could get my frIend back.. I was going thru alot ... And I was ******* up bad I was drunk and taking pills and I kno that shouldn't. Be an excuse ... But I just didn't care anymore about anything and that was childish of me.... My dearest friend Deborah Aka d-loc I wish u would give me a 2 nd chance!!! Please some one give me an idea to get my friend back cuz I hav ran out..